仇恨与原谅。

这一阵子，我一直都觉得，我眼前好像有一条界线，
叫做仇恨的界线。而且我好像看到我自己就要跨出去了。
但现在我选择不要跨出去。
其实，跨出去我们可能战胜别人，但是不跨出去你就是战胜自己。

超越伤痛的唯一办法，就是原谅伤害你的人。

为什么要认那些伤害我的人继续控制我？
让他们影响我的心情，让他们破坏我的快乐。
甚至让他们扭曲我的性格。

我不喜欢这样，也不想要这样。

我会想要把我自己的力量拿回来。从他们那边拿回来。

所以为一的办法就是原谅他。

要知道，决定复仇需要勇气。可是决定原谅，需要更大的勇气。

我要勇敢！！

－犀利人妻－

What wrong have we done

I think it's becos of my situation, having a failure marriage. I attracted a lot of people who have the same situation as I do. Some are more heart aching, some are more simple. But no matter what is it, it's never easy to just move and let go. It is easy for the person change their heart. 

Have been knowing that teddy bear is going through hell. The moment I know him and get to know his story. I knew it's never going to be easy. I told him before. The peacefulness u have now it's just the beginning of the storm.

Imagine how difficult he is now to go through all the heart break and yet have to handle how his ex treating him by giving him the worst nightmare. Bring in lots of excuses and evidents to show the court how pitiful she is and gain whatever she wanted and "deserve". 

Hearing all those and thinking back. I could have do the same. But I didn't. Becos I understand the meaning behind a marriage and I know I vow to commit. Even if I regret marrying the person. I will not end it for such reason, but will make myself understand that loving a person and building a family is never something I should be regret of.

Rather than making a scene, giving him a hard time, gaining what I suppose to have. I try my very best to maintain and save it. Till the day he told me he didn't have the heart to carry on. He don't see us in future and even I disagree with annulment, he will file for divorce and we will be divorce anyhow. This break my heart. Why didn't I get a lawyer, fight for it, demand a payment for life damage and verble abuse where I have all the messages he said to me... Like "relationship is like a business". And declare his lie for saying I refuse to have sexual activity after married. All these evident is good enough to prove his lie and give him a good one by losing what he have to me. But I chose not to. 

Marrying a man that loves me, adore me is every women's dream... The most blissful moment. But when a man like this just turn his back against me has destroy me totally... Telling all the fake stories, giving a the fake promises and breaking all his vows.... 

I want to believe in karma. Is there really one? I have my doubts. 

I really hope teddy bear will stand up one day.. Hope he be strong, it's never too late to know now than later. Imagine having kids involve... Well.. At least he didn't have to gone thru that lost. 

What wrong have we done

I think it's becos of my situation, having a failure marriage. I attracted a lot of people who have the same situation as I do. Some are more heart aching, some are more simple. But no matter what is it, it's never easy to just move and let go. It is easy for the person change their heart. 

Have been knowing that teddy bear is going through hell. The moment I know him and get to know his story. I knew it's never going to be easy. I told him before. The peacefulness u have now it's just the beginning of the storm.

Imagine how difficult he is now to go through all the heart break and yet have to handle how his ex treating him by giving him the worst nightmare. Bring in lots of excuses and evidents to show the court how pitiful she is and gain whatever she wanted and "deserve". 

Hearing all those and thinking back. I could have do the same. But I didn't. Becos I understand the meaning behind a marriage and I know I vow to commit. Even if I regret marrying the person. I will not end it for such reason, but will make myself understand that loving a person and building a family is never something I should be regret of.

Rather than making a scene, giving him a hard time, gaining what I suppose to have. I try my very best to maintain and save it. Till the day he told me he didn't have the heart to carry on. He don't see us in future and even I disagree with annulment, he will file for divorce and we will be divorce anyhow. This break my heart. Why didn't I get a lawyer, fight for it, demand a payment for life damage and verble abuse where I have all the messages he said to me... Like "relationship is like a business". And declare his lie for saying I refuse to have sexual activity after married. All these evident is good enough to prove his lie and give him a good one by losing what he have to me. But I chose not to. 

Marrying a man that loves me, adore me is every women's dream... The most blissful moment. But when a man like this just turn his back against me has destroy me totally... Telling all the fake stories, giving a the fake promises and breaking all his vows.... 

I want to believe in karma. Is there really one? I have my doubts. 

I really hope teddy bear will stand up one day.. Hope he be strong, it's never too late to know now than later. Imagine having kids involve... Well.. At least he didn't have to gone thru that lost.