Its hard to tell myself how time flies. Its almost a year since the last incident happen.
Everyone sees through things in a different way.And some maybe easier and happier but some not.
I have been going around the circle for the past 7 months of my life. sticking together, breaking apart and sticking back together and breaking apart. Its never been easy for me.
Knowing a person its hard, but knowing a person who build a wall is even harder. I know myself who has been building walls for the past 10years, and the wall was brought down by someone I thought would love me forever. I vows and make promise to love this person till I die. And he did the same. But never did I realise that when things happen, instead of solving it and communicate about it, he chose to leave my life and escape as far away as possible. And this is how he sees things. Neither do I realise that the vows and promises I made to this man is not worth it.
I have my chance again to build the wall. This time, the wall will be so concrete that no one can ever bring it down and including myself. I was wrong. I can still feel my heart beat. I could still feel my breathe, I could still feel the pain. I knew this is going to happen again and I have to make it stop. I am tired defending myself. The easier way to escape which I learnt from him is RUN. I need to run away from the situation. I need to tell myself to avoid the situation. I need to clear away from it as soon as possible before I was hurt again.
Maybe the people I know did not change. Its just that the mask that they are wearing is falling apart?
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