Today... 14/12/2012, doing the usual stuffs I do everyday... Its such a normal friday, except I tried the new Milo thick toast and Today Paper is thicker than before.... And an un-wanted email informed me that Janice, my lunch khaki had passed away during her trip in Australia. I didnt know how to react... and I am totally at a lose...
Yes.. be strong.. RIP is always used to console one another... but the feeling is hard to accept the fact that someone u see everyday is no longer a privilege to see anymore.... I even bought her a xmas present... I even RSVP with her my wedding date... Now she couldnt attend my wedding.. becos she cant make it on that day.
Its was those days that I am fighting my tears back... Cos I know myself... I cant cry.. If I do.. there is no stop.. I will keep crying. And the more I fight it.. the more sad I am. So the only way is to hide myself in the toilet to cry...
I even sent her an email yesterday asking her to join us for lunch as usual. But she didnt replied. Its obvious to me that she extended her leave but never expect her depart so sudden. I was still hoping for miracle that its not her. My colleague cry so hard when she knew it as we always enjoy lunch together.
If you were to ask me to cry now... I would... If you give me a hug now I would....
There is always things u want to treasure in life and achieve in life.. Just that everyone has different priority in life.. Was chatting with my other lunch Khaki telling her... I might be also gone tomorrow, So what do u think u shd do today?
Life is not unpredictable... We all know we will depart one day... but did u make full use of ur brain, heart and feelings to feel, to think and to love? If not.. maybe u should. Becos like my friend.. it will never have chance to feel, to think and to love... but with memories of us...
Now... Think of what is so important to u, Think of have u been doing enough... Think of have u been feeling how it felt... before everything is too late.
14/12/2012 4.16pm
Friday, 14 December 2012
Sunday, 9 December 2012
Will my sickness follow me if I end this life?
I feel like a drag... doesnt feel like living on. No hope, desperation...
Sometime I wonder, If I were to let myself end it here... will all my pain and suffering end as well?
Knee problem, vertigo, fibroid, gastric, vomiting... WTH.. I am so tired of it... arghhhh.....
Medication, medication, medication.... Canot take this, canot do that, canot eat this... haiz....
10/12/12. 12.04pm
Sometime I wonder, If I were to let myself end it here... will all my pain and suffering end as well?
Knee problem, vertigo, fibroid, gastric, vomiting... WTH.. I am so tired of it... arghhhh.....
Medication, medication, medication.... Canot take this, canot do that, canot eat this... haiz....
10/12/12. 12.04pm
Tuesday, 4 December 2012
What can I do without sleep
The most scary part of my life is when that stupid vertigo thing strike back, it definitely cause a chaos in my life whereby I lose all interest in doing anything... I hate it. And it comes and goes without much indication. And it can happen for weeks and sometime months, to be lucky enough it will go away in days. And so I will just do nothing but sleep....
Please let it go away... We have so much to do.... Please please please...!!!,
Please let it go away... We have so much to do.... Please please please...!!!,
Thursday, 27 September 2012
Power of Ampoule
What I know about ampoule is; it is effective in keeping the make up stay longer on our face and its usually use by Make up artist for photo shoot or on wedding for the brides and sometime the groom too.
As i went thru alot of comment online reading about ampoule, which I might need it sometime and realise that makeup artist actually charge like $25 per bottle (try before in JB $25RM), I start to read from blog and friends that we could actually get them cheaper elsewhere... and so my hunting start.
G**** was the first source for all these kind of thing of cos... and i FOUND IT... hm... $8.90 inclusive of postage... so was it.. like one bottle? I was like... "waaaaaaa... than the makeup artist earn so much leh....$16.10 extra... gosh.." But i am not sure whether or not its the same ampoule.. Since its not so ex, so i try buying it in G****, I tried 2 seller... and I got the Acne one and Lifting.. The lifting said to be good to keep makeup stay on our face... so i chose qty 2 for lifting and 1 for Acne for the start...
A week later after my purchased.. YEAY!!!!... my ampoule is here... I was so eager to try... I quickly open the package.. WOW... I was surprise to see my Qty 1 is not 1 bottle, but 1 box containing 10 bottles... which means.. the Makeup artist is charging $250 for a box?? OMG!!! And the seller attached 2 eye mask as free gifts and I bought the refiller for $1 each
Ok... So does it seem diiferent from a close to $10 ampoule and a $25 ampoule??
At the start.. I use the Acne one first... didnt dare do it in the morning, so i do it at night... so at least when my face is ruin.. I can see doc the next morning, rather than it happen during the day while in ofc right?... I was shock to see my radient face the next morning.... and my pimple really have some changes woh.... after 2 bottles of ampoule I can see the change on my skin... smoother... and pimple scar lighter... wow... However... Acne ampoule dont really keep the shine away, but makeup seem to apply easier on my face.
Than I tried the lifting ampoule which was said to makes my makup stay longer....
And YES..... since morning... I apply... (less than half bottle...) my oily face doesnt seem so oily... it was keep matt for a good 5 hours... yet.. not as oily as uncontrollable as before.. WOW WOW WOW....
Now.. after my research online... this is how ampoule is use: if u use it in the
Morning: cleanser - toner - ampoule - moisturizer/sun screen/makeup etc
night : cleanser - toner - ampoule - moisturizer
But some ampoule are too rich to use everyday... so skip a day or one every 2 days is advisable, but research the brand u buy... :D
As i went thru alot of comment online reading about ampoule, which I might need it sometime and realise that makeup artist actually charge like $25 per bottle (try before in JB $25RM), I start to read from blog and friends that we could actually get them cheaper elsewhere... and so my hunting start.
G**** was the first source for all these kind of thing of cos... and i FOUND IT... hm... $8.90 inclusive of postage... so was it.. like one bottle? I was like... "waaaaaaa... than the makeup artist earn so much leh....$16.10 extra... gosh.." But i am not sure whether or not its the same ampoule.. Since its not so ex, so i try buying it in G****, I tried 2 seller... and I got the Acne one and Lifting.. The lifting said to be good to keep makeup stay on our face... so i chose qty 2 for lifting and 1 for Acne for the start...
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| Ampoule for Lifting effect |
Ok... So does it seem diiferent from a close to $10 ampoule and a $25 ampoule??
At the start.. I use the Acne one first... didnt dare do it in the morning, so i do it at night... so at least when my face is ruin.. I can see doc the next morning, rather than it happen during the day while in ofc right?... I was shock to see my radient face the next morning.... and my pimple really have some changes woh.... after 2 bottles of ampoule I can see the change on my skin... smoother... and pimple scar lighter... wow... However... Acne ampoule dont really keep the shine away, but makeup seem to apply easier on my face.
Than I tried the lifting ampoule which was said to makes my makup stay longer....
And YES..... since morning... I apply... (less than half bottle...) my oily face doesnt seem so oily... it was keep matt for a good 5 hours... yet.. not as oily as uncontrollable as before.. WOW WOW WOW....
Now.. after my research online... this is how ampoule is use: if u use it in the
Morning: cleanser - toner - ampoule - moisturizer/sun screen/makeup etc
night : cleanser - toner - ampoule - moisturizer
But some ampoule are too rich to use everyday... so skip a day or one every 2 days is advisable, but research the brand u buy... :D
Tuesday, 25 September 2012
The Dieting part 1
Dieting is torturing, and Dieting is tiring.... why am I doing this?
Well, have it the wrong way, I think my Dar think that I am fat.. always told me to control my meat intake.. :( sad to know that, cos I am a meat eater, if i dont intake meat, than might as well dont eat lor... so sad. But i dont always eat alot of meat what.... I eat vege also.. but when u go to a western restaurant.. look at the bloody salad.. its damn expensive lor... So i rather chose the main course which is more value for money.. $$$ but if i go for chinese food. I always need to have vege to go along.. Cant be just meat alone what.. WTH!!
And I am so angry when people doubt my ability to go on diet.. if that is the case, I will go water diet instead and eat only at certain time. Seriously, I dont like people to challenge me, cos I will fight all my way to prove them wrong.
Its the 3rd day of my diet... doesnt seem to lose any weight at all.. guess the water makes me heavier.. and that is very discouraging. Now I try to avoid eating anything except for those low carb items... but I dont think i can survive that also.. (abit expensive lah)
But going on diet really makes me weak... every moment.. I feel weak at knee... head giddy and feel tired easily.... sleepy... and get irritated very easily... Not to say how difficult it is when my "ah yi" visit me... and this time round my "ah yi" like not so happy woh... cos "she" stay for awhile only... and no much to "say" for this time round... hm... was it the diet thing? My mum always tells me that when "ah yi" come, I must feed her with meat de mah... Now cos "someone" irritates me, and I am on strike...
I really miss my rice... miss my fried chicken... miss my fries... miss alot of things.. and I am not happy at all. So torturing leh
Well, have it the wrong way, I think my Dar think that I am fat.. always told me to control my meat intake.. :( sad to know that, cos I am a meat eater, if i dont intake meat, than might as well dont eat lor... so sad. But i dont always eat alot of meat what.... I eat vege also.. but when u go to a western restaurant.. look at the bloody salad.. its damn expensive lor... So i rather chose the main course which is more value for money.. $$$ but if i go for chinese food. I always need to have vege to go along.. Cant be just meat alone what.. WTH!!
And I am so angry when people doubt my ability to go on diet.. if that is the case, I will go water diet instead and eat only at certain time. Seriously, I dont like people to challenge me, cos I will fight all my way to prove them wrong.
Its the 3rd day of my diet... doesnt seem to lose any weight at all.. guess the water makes me heavier.. and that is very discouraging. Now I try to avoid eating anything except for those low carb items... but I dont think i can survive that also.. (abit expensive lah)
But going on diet really makes me weak... every moment.. I feel weak at knee... head giddy and feel tired easily.... sleepy... and get irritated very easily... Not to say how difficult it is when my "ah yi" visit me... and this time round my "ah yi" like not so happy woh... cos "she" stay for awhile only... and no much to "say" for this time round... hm... was it the diet thing? My mum always tells me that when "ah yi" come, I must feed her with meat de mah... Now cos "someone" irritates me, and I am on strike...
I really miss my rice... miss my fried chicken... miss my fries... miss alot of things.. and I am not happy at all. So torturing leh
幸福難不難
While i was listening to this... I found it so meaningful... nice and i think its every womans thoughts... at least its mine... ^^
我現在過的很好 不為什麽苦惱
日子像優游的水草 也不怕回憶驚擾
過去多在意的 事過境遷了隨風飄
誰等在我的昨天 左右不了明天
愛過幾年 緣分總是少一天
一個人 一輩子 一次幸福難不難
每次想走的很遠 越渴望越無力向前
如果那麽愛你最後還要失去你 為你傷心
可能 我會寧願不去冒險
一句話 一輩子 一次幸福難不難
聽過多少永遠 只懷念擁抱你的瞬間
如果遺失的夢還能再找回來 我會勇敢
可是選擇離開 就別遺憾
誰等在我的昨天 左右不了明天
愛過幾年 緣分總是少一天
一個人 一輩子 一次幸福難不難
每次想走的很遠 越渴望越無力向前
如果那麽愛你最後還要失去你 為你傷心
可能 我會寧願不去冒險
一句話 一輩子 一次幸福難不難
聽過多少永遠 只懷念擁抱你的瞬間
如果遺失的夢還能再找回來 我會勇敢
可是選擇離開 就別遺憾
一轉身 一輩子 一次幸福難不難
當時說了再見 再見面時空都已蛻變
如果遺失的夢還能再找回來 我會勇敢
可是選擇離開 就別遺憾
放開一切才能 握住你的手
Monday, 24 September 2012
Being in a relationship
It is often than not when you are single, you look forward for someone to be with you, share all the laughter, joy and happiness with you. hug u when u feel sad, offer his shoulder when u cry. company u when u feel stress, listen to u when u are angry. But when you are attached, you miss those single hood days where you dont have to bother about the other half, how they feel, they think about you, look at you and schedule every moment of your time with them.
I always thought that when 2 are together for a long while, its will generally understand the needs of the other half, the want of the other half and the demand of the other half. For me, I only have hope but never want to demand. Whats the different? Hope was something they do without you noticing, without u asking & without u hinting. Demand is something u ask to, ask for and request for.
Many have said that it require communication.. And yes.. I am more agree than anyone. But what is communication? Nagging and reminding doesnt count hor.Becos communication is simple.. it require one to talk and the other to listen. And most importantly.. remember what u two have discuss, talk and listen to.
What about give & take? What should be given and what should be taken? This is never a good words or strategy to use in a r/s. It is always a bad things to happen. Becos when u have given too much, u will want to take back some, but when u have taken too much, u never wants to give any. So its not easy to monitor the situation.
The longest time i have been in a r/s is for 10 long yrs... But it happen when the other half spend almost half of his life running around the globe, spending time with me is limited... And this makes me feel in secure.
I have been left alone ever since i was born.. of cos not when i am a baby (I hope so). My parents are often not at home.. so its always me, myself and I.
My bro is never that close to me, and its still me, myself and I.
When i knew him (my ex) its still me, myself and I.
Its not difficult for anyone to understand how i grown up. I am longing for a warm passionate r/s whereby my partner can give me unconditional love, I am longing for someone who can give me TLC without me requesting it or demand it. (cos i never will ask for from my past experiences). I always believe that when someone wants to do something, the person will do it willingly without much asking from it. Becos that is what the person wants to do. If I were to ask and tell the person to do.. than that is demanding and it doesnt serve any purpose.
Does keeping saying "I love you" means anything to me? The answer might not be yes... well.. girls like to hear all these mushy mushy words.. We need them to make us feel good. But saying without action is like having fatty meals when saying I am on diet.. (useless). A sudden kiss in the morning, or a kiss in the night is action that require to prove his little love, a little squeeze in the hand while holding hand is a representing of "noticing you every moment". a little hug whenever it permits is a little security he can provide you with, a little gifts is the "passion and surprise" he can give to makes u feel wanted. Saying "I love you" with a return of "I love you too" and saying "I miss you" with a return of " I miss you even more".
Well.. this only happen in movies or drama... but its that simple a girl wants. feel treasured, feel precious-ed and feel passionate.
25/09/2012 11.13am
I always thought that when 2 are together for a long while, its will generally understand the needs of the other half, the want of the other half and the demand of the other half. For me, I only have hope but never want to demand. Whats the different? Hope was something they do without you noticing, without u asking & without u hinting. Demand is something u ask to, ask for and request for.
Many have said that it require communication.. And yes.. I am more agree than anyone. But what is communication? Nagging and reminding doesnt count hor.Becos communication is simple.. it require one to talk and the other to listen. And most importantly.. remember what u two have discuss, talk and listen to.
What about give & take? What should be given and what should be taken? This is never a good words or strategy to use in a r/s. It is always a bad things to happen. Becos when u have given too much, u will want to take back some, but when u have taken too much, u never wants to give any. So its not easy to monitor the situation.
The longest time i have been in a r/s is for 10 long yrs... But it happen when the other half spend almost half of his life running around the globe, spending time with me is limited... And this makes me feel in secure.
I have been left alone ever since i was born.. of cos not when i am a baby (I hope so). My parents are often not at home.. so its always me, myself and I.
My bro is never that close to me, and its still me, myself and I.
When i knew him (my ex) its still me, myself and I.
Its not difficult for anyone to understand how i grown up. I am longing for a warm passionate r/s whereby my partner can give me unconditional love, I am longing for someone who can give me TLC without me requesting it or demand it. (cos i never will ask for from my past experiences). I always believe that when someone wants to do something, the person will do it willingly without much asking from it. Becos that is what the person wants to do. If I were to ask and tell the person to do.. than that is demanding and it doesnt serve any purpose.
Does keeping saying "I love you" means anything to me? The answer might not be yes... well.. girls like to hear all these mushy mushy words.. We need them to make us feel good. But saying without action is like having fatty meals when saying I am on diet.. (useless). A sudden kiss in the morning, or a kiss in the night is action that require to prove his little love, a little squeeze in the hand while holding hand is a representing of "noticing you every moment". a little hug whenever it permits is a little security he can provide you with, a little gifts is the "passion and surprise" he can give to makes u feel wanted. Saying "I love you" with a return of "I love you too" and saying "I miss you" with a return of " I miss you even more".
Well.. this only happen in movies or drama... but its that simple a girl wants. feel treasured, feel precious-ed and feel passionate.
Sunday, 16 September 2012
Lots to learn and Lots to share
It was only through lots of helpful online friends... I get to know lots of jar gens use for wedding terms
MTM = make to measure
OTR = On the rack
MUA= make up artist
VG = Video grapher
PS = Photo grapher (mine knowledge is Pang sai leh... hahahaha)
BTB = Bride to be
HTB = Husband to be
hmmm....... it needs lots of research to understand the terms.... if not.. u get lost... i was at the beginning, when i mix up MUA and KUA.. hahahaha...
MTM = make to measure
OTR = On the rack
MUA= make up artist
VG = Video grapher
PS = Photo grapher (mine knowledge is Pang sai leh... hahahaha)
BTB = Bride to be
HTB = Husband to be
hmmm....... it needs lots of research to understand the terms.... if not.. u get lost... i was at the beginning, when i mix up MUA and KUA.. hahahaha...
The Bridal Shop
2 shortlisted bridal shop..
1) The Bridal Room
the package was reasonable... The gown and suits was lovely and really nice... esp the guy suit.. so much variety...As for their customer service... "ehm...." maybe I am asking too much lor.. Didnt have a chance to try the gown as it was not offered.
package for actual day & ROM ($2988 + $70) (no GST nor svs charge)
- 1 AD gown (all style OTR)
- 1 Kua/tea dress
- 1 evening gown (OTR)
- all accessories (from necklaces to necklaces, bouquets)
- 2 style of suits (include all accessories for my dar)
- corsages
- 2 jacket for my dad
- makeup/hairstyle
- car deco
- 1 ROM dress & 1 suit (no flower bouquet)
- makeup for ROM (addition to pay another $70 with AD package)
have to add $900 for photography on AD which given in album, soft copy, but i must highlight, they are free lance photographer.. (Sky). Their in house photographer (Johnny) take nice photo but not my kind of style unfortunately.
2) la bella Couture
package was reasonable.. Gown and suits are lovely as well... customer service was excellent from Ms Jinni. She offer to try the gown although i didnt request... and i even told her we are just asking... wont give her any answer today.. she said "its ok.." :)
Package for actual day & Rom ($3188+$80) (no GST nor svs charge)
- 1 AD gown (all style OTR)
- 1 Kua/tea dress
- 1 evening gown (OTR)
- all accessories (from necklaces to necklaces, bouquets)
- 2 style of suits (include all accessories for my dar)
- corsages
- 2 jacket for my dad
- makeup/hairstyle
- car deco
- free car rented (benz with driver and petrol included)
- 1 ROM dress & 1 suit (with flower bouquet)
- makeup for ROM (addition to pay another $80 with AD package)
have to add $1888 for photographer, in house team "loud production" which is their sister company, So that we have no worry for the day, if the photographer was sick on the day, they always have people to cover up. saw their styles... nice.... Ms Jinni was a nice lady, she even introduce a very blissful solemnizer to us... saying that she is very bless lady, and also introduce me place to do gelish for $28 full hand... OMG!!
Dar said he might consider (2) cos he like the Benz.. hahaha... well.. he is the boss anyway. Dar and myself like Ms Jinni service too... not pushy at all... No hard sell and most importantly... They dont bad mouth other bridal. And she give us the choice... She gave us their best product and advise us on anything and everything without being selfish.
1) The Bridal Room
the package was reasonable... The gown and suits was lovely and really nice... esp the guy suit.. so much variety...As for their customer service... "ehm...." maybe I am asking too much lor.. Didnt have a chance to try the gown as it was not offered.
package for actual day & ROM ($2988 + $70) (no GST nor svs charge)
- 1 AD gown (all style OTR)
- 1 Kua/tea dress
- 1 evening gown (OTR)
- all accessories (from necklaces to necklaces, bouquets)
- 2 style of suits (include all accessories for my dar)
- corsages
- 2 jacket for my dad
- makeup/hairstyle
- car deco
- 1 ROM dress & 1 suit (no flower bouquet)
- makeup for ROM (addition to pay another $70 with AD package)
have to add $900 for photography on AD which given in album, soft copy, but i must highlight, they are free lance photographer.. (Sky). Their in house photographer (Johnny) take nice photo but not my kind of style unfortunately.
2) la bella Couture
package was reasonable.. Gown and suits are lovely as well... customer service was excellent from Ms Jinni. She offer to try the gown although i didnt request... and i even told her we are just asking... wont give her any answer today.. she said "its ok.." :)
Package for actual day & Rom ($3188+$80) (no GST nor svs charge)
- 1 AD gown (all style OTR)
- 1 Kua/tea dress
- 1 evening gown (OTR)
- all accessories (from necklaces to necklaces, bouquets)
- 2 style of suits (include all accessories for my dar)
- corsages
- 2 jacket for my dad
- makeup/hairstyle
- car deco
- free car rented (benz with driver and petrol included)
- 1 ROM dress & 1 suit (with flower bouquet)
- makeup for ROM (addition to pay another $80 with AD package)
have to add $1888 for photographer, in house team "loud production" which is their sister company, So that we have no worry for the day, if the photographer was sick on the day, they always have people to cover up. saw their styles... nice.... Ms Jinni was a nice lady, she even introduce a very blissful solemnizer to us... saying that she is very bless lady, and also introduce me place to do gelish for $28 full hand... OMG!!
Dar said he might consider (2) cos he like the Benz.. hahaha... well.. he is the boss anyway. Dar and myself like Ms Jinni service too... not pushy at all... No hard sell and most importantly... They dont bad mouth other bridal. And she give us the choice... She gave us their best product and advise us on anything and everything without being selfish.
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