抽痛

是不是做错了？

好久没有这抽痛的感觉了。是不是因为不舍得？

其实我也一样。从知道了之后，我没有一天是不哭的， 没有一天不心痛。但是又能怎样？BB 没事的。 要知道，他就厉害的是逃避，不会去面对的。就算知道了，他也不会相信的。他就是这样的一个人，不敢担当的。所以不要在弄痛我了好吗？

要保佑我早点找到一位可以值得託付終身的人。MM 有去为你拜拜哦。

痛已是一辈子的。但我没能忘。不会忘。

My tears will never dry, but am not sure will I be blind one day.... 
She told me its not worth crying for the man who is not worth crying for... 
But my tears shed becos of my precious... every memory and thoughts makes me weak. 

The abdominal pain come in every time I start to stop thinking. I thg I can have a good night sleep. But I cant. Not sure for how long can I last... 

Everytime, I wish.. if I can be knock down by car and forget about everything... Its the most wonderful present. 

I dont know what have I done. What bad did I do... to have such happen. I didnt put myself into a situation to met someone who is not serious and lead my life like hell. 
I .....