Sharing the burden and pain

I always believe that I should let my pain be within me, sharing with others might not help in anyway. It only bring them sorrow and sadness. The most they can be worried, be sad like u are... 

I have try so hard to face the pain on my own. I used to have someone I thg I can share with... thg my life was different... thg I found someone I can let my burden be with, in fact I was not being share with my burden or trouble, but yet, the one who said wanted to share my burden and sarrow was the one who add on to my pain and hurt me the most. 

I know its his choice to give up, to escape, to run away...

I know its his choice to be this heartless. 

Till now, I couldnt understand... why can a person be so heartless... I wonder... what does he made of? 

The man who hug me and said love me.. was it really meant to be? Or was it just saying becos he think its time to say? 

The man who proposal to me and said wanted to make his wife... what does a wife mean to him? 

The man who vows to death till us apart, does he know what does that mean when he said I do? 

I believe everyone has their short coming.. I have, and so is he.. When a person didnt see his own, what does this make him? 

I know my short coming, and that is the reason why I make him promise to just take it, becos my forgiveness will coming in short period of time. Becos I know I can be angry, I am be disappointed, I can be upset... But with him.. it will not be forever... I will always find a way to forgive him, find a way to accept that he is like that. I accept who he is and forget about everything... But he couldnt. 

He said he couldnt be the person I want him to be, a supporting husband, a caring husband, and a loving husband. Than what kind of husband can he be than? A selfish, foolish and dumb husband? 

What does love means? 

Love is not in accepting the person than what it is? 

I wish I can have the answer. I believe BB want to know why too. 

But we will never know. And I dont really wish to know. 

Just hope that he can learn to love before he losts everything.... 

I learned mine...