Getting the regrets

I have never regret doing anything in life... regardless my life, my work or my love life.. 

Till now I have... If i can reduce my 10yrs of lives in exchange to turn back clock and amend it I would. And I wont chose what I have chosen. 

I dont even regret waiting Steve for 10yrs. But I regret the decision I made for just 1 yr. No doubt I have the chance to walk again and start again... but the scar I had its not that SIMPLE like you mentioned. You will never understand how much u have done to damage a person or hurt a person. All u know is u want to be happy and stress free, nothing else matter to U. 

Hope u sleep well at night. And stop lying to yourself that u are hurt or sad too...

Everything seem so pointless and meaningless to him, nothing else matter except his own happiness and his own personal feel, he dont bother to care about others feeling. If he does, he wouldnt have make a rush choice and now a unresponsible choice. 

I know a fail relationship its not a solo issue, it makes 2 to clap, yes I cannot be agree more. I have my own temper but I can proudly say that I have never throw any un-necessary or un-reasonable temper during the relationship, and every temper I throw was due to his un sensitive reaction and his selfish and self centered behavior.  For the previous blog I mentioned, he kept wanting me to mingle with his family, but have he done for doing this? Being his own family, am I suppose to understand them all as an outsider? Am I suppose to adapt to his life style whereas its not mine? If I can try to change myself into someone I am not and be happy of the change, why cant he? Stress? Dont bring your work stress onto me and take that as an excuse. 

Tan Wee Khim, U never know how to love a person at all, U never learn how to respect a person, and how many time have u been gg out alone with my friend behind my back? U have never been honest with me for the yr of relationship with me. So dont start putting all the faults in me. 

He can even tell me I love myself more than loves him. Well, isnt it suppose to be the other way round? I have not been happy with alot of things, but it just a matter of accepting it and take in control and forget about it. I did all I can and I did all he wants. What else did he expect me to do?

I am sorry to say this TAN WEE KHIM. looking back. U are a great person to be with, I loved u and I admit it, but U have not be accepting the person who I really am, U are trying to change me into a person who u wanted me to become? I admit that I am trying to change u too. But my change is to want u to realise that we need to do alot of effort to make our everyday life a sweet and beautiful one, I am changing u so as u wont take me as ur wife for granted. I am changing u into a romantic person, I am changing u into a person to keep ur words. But everything things u said had never come true. 

U said u worried about me, care for me, loved me... But what have u done when u worried me? what have u done when u care about me? what have u done when u love me? I need to be appreciated, I need to be care for, I need to be love. Isnt that what u want? I always help u in anyway, I worried that u keep eating outside food so I have to deliver home cooked dinner to u, I help u plan so much thing so as to reduce the stress u have and I carry it all on me. Do u know how much stress I am handing? U dont know, becos u never bother to know.