The good or bad?

It's normal that every break up, it will turn from sad to hate. Becos when u hate a person, u tends to recall all the bad things the other Pierson did to you and hence easier to move on. But... For me, it cannot deny that our memories are not build with only the bad.

I can still remember how much he cares for me before. Company me to doctor when I am sick, how he try so hard to meet me every Wednesday , that was the happiest moment.. Always looking forward for the Wednesday to come. 

I can remember how fantastic it is to hold and hug each other when we took the MRT home. 

I can remember how happy I am every moment he surprise me with flower that sent to my office. 

I can remember how wonderful it is when we hold each other so tightly in the cinema, enjoying every show, holding hand tightly, hug each other and talk about how funny and great about the movie. 

I can remember how great it is every night he hug me to sleep. And how we fall asleep in each other arms. 

I can remember how sweet he is when he bought me those gifts, 

I can remember how wonderful it is when we decide to prepare the Christmas gift that we made ourself. 

I can remember how much. Love seeing him each day, asking whether his 'pi sai' is out or not. 

I can remember how wonderful it is when I hold him close to me. 

I can remember how we discuss about what to how to make each other satisfy when we have love together .

I can remember how we enjoy ourself by the beach.. Talking about future and plan

I can remember remember how exciting it is when we travel together and enjoy every moment and every corner. 

I can remember how we secretly book a hotel to have a exotic valentine day together.  

I can remember the enjoyment we had in Taichung taking our wedding photos

I can remember how exciting we are preparing the wedding together before. But I don't understand why he don't feel it later. 

I remember all the above and I appreciate what he did for me. Although its not real love, but I can feel the happiness. 

I hope that day never happen and if it doesn't what will it lead to? Another reason for another fight? Or happily together and have what the above? 

My request and demand for a little more love from him have cause him stress, make him drain. Makes me really hurt when he told me so. 

My heart has broken. My feelings for him gone like wind. We are not compatible and a lot of different. But we have gone thru all the above... And yet, he chose to give up. 

It breaks my heart to pieces and like a knife cut into it. But if forgotten the above and leave him will make him happier than what we have done above. Than I wish him all the best.