The hurt I received

He used to tell me all the love story that I didnt want to hear
He used to tell me all the lies I dont believe its lies
He used to say how much he loves me that I believe
But now... Just because he is not happy of what it is, He give up everything.

When he knew me. I am just the way I am. But he said, he is willing to take it becos he knew and have think about it.

We decide to walk thru the road together, thats why we chose to make it happen.

My parents has told him the kind of person I am, He said he is aware, and becos of that he loves the way I am

My brother told him to think nicely, before committing himself into a marriage. he said time is not the concern, but becos we both know what we want and therefore he wanted to

He proposed to me, he ask me to be his wife. He promised to love me, He even promised that he will never be like his dad let his wife cry everynight. He promised to give in to me first no matter what.

He break all those promises

He had given me the loves I want, the care I want... and also the hurt that I didnt ask for.

To him, marriage is like a joke. It suppose to be a happy forever thing, and when things turn ugly, he just escape it and pretend whatever happen has never happen.

We have been thru all those thin and thick, been thru the most difficult part of our life and we walk thru all those... planning ahead of what we are searching for... And for what he thinks is not gg to be happy, he give up and hurt me the most.

I have done so much for this seek of what I believe is love.

I mingle with his family, and go thru it and used to it.

I knew he is busy with his work and so I have to do all the preparation of the wedding. Yes.. He may know nothing about what to do. But I am too, I am also clueless of what should be done. But I do my best by spending time to do research, asking around. reading forum.

I prepare all the wedding songs, I prepare our wedding themes, I do up with the proper wedding gate clash, I get my friends to help up on the wedding printing, I research on the bridal, I research on the wedding photo. yet I still have to take care of my work as well as to make sure everything run smoothly. I didnt want my wedding to be 100% perfect, but I want to make it a good one, so that he is proud to tell all his relatives and friends that he is serious about it, I want him to be proud of hving a nice wedding banquet that he always wanted to have. All I have done so far was not for me, becos I am not the one who wants a banquet anyway...

We quarrel once, and than we forgive each other, and he promise to give me the most support. He did... but for a short while. after that, it was just taking for granted.

For all the things I have done... Do he ever said " thanks dear, hope u are not tired of doing all those" instead he dont ask, dont care.

yes, something it might not be as important to him. But its a wedding... I want him to feel involve becos its our wedding. I didnt want it to be perfect, but... I want to put in effort to do it.

He work require him to put in so much time on it, but not with me... this is something that I cannot ask for and he cannot give. The only thing I can do is complain and nag. Cant I have this only things to do? Am I not allow to even complain?

Marriage is a commitment. We make our vows to be together no matter what. But to him. its not like that. To him, if its happy than we can get married, if he is not, than we should divorce. Why did he do so much than? Why spend and invest so much on me and give up everything that we build?

I am not angry but my heart is aching. I am disappointed to know the man I thg can give me happiness has given me the most painful experiences.

His promise is nothing but empty promises, He promises not to let his wife cry everynight but he did.
His promise to give me all the love but he didnt yet the hurt I didnt want to received.

What have i did wrong to deserve all this from him?

All the effort I put in to get along with his family, to have dinner with them, to bring him dinner so as he can have home cooked food, helping him with all the preparation, giving him all the love that I have was nothing to him.

How can a person be so heartless? Even Steve dont hurt me this much.